4.23.2006

have mercy

woke up at about 4:00 am. drank chocolate, took a bath and made our way to marilao, bulacan. it's the divine mercy feast today and we annualy visit that place. that place.

bulacan.

i was psychologically tortured with thought of me, being in, "that place", bulacan. the home town of that person i cannot let go of, that person i couldn't stop thinking about.. yah. pathetic.

again, i attempted a conversation with him, looked desperate and got ignored by him for the upteenth time.

like what the god of stoicism say... it sucks.

like what i've mentioned today is the feast of God's mercy, that we should all completely trust in him. let go and let God..

letting go is very hard for me... to think that i've fallen deeply in love with the same person who's deeply hating me right now...

maybe i should really let go... no, i should really let go now..

i just have one wish.. and that's to see him again.. for the last time, i know i the last time i told myself that it would be the last time was not really the last time, but THIS TIME, i know it will be.

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