3.22.2007

not deja vu please

and so, my second year in ust is over.

and up to now i really am still scared of my test in statistics! well, not to mention bio and rc, but this stat is really wrecking my head...

i slept last night thinking about it, woke up still thinking about it, i switched the TV on and heard "...wala ng pag-asa." and switched the channel and there was this local noontime show whose guests were graduates and their parents..

uh. call it paranoia but i am really going crazy!

it's like economics all over again!
my prelim grade was ok-- just like eco
my final quizzes were.. ugh!- just like eco
and my final exam was pure.. haay..

its just that i cannot afford another summer inside the walls of AB building. we cannot afford another summer class, financially.

i apologize for all those people who visit this blog. i really have to let this out.

i don't want to flunk, nor do i want to prepare myself of flunking, nor do i want to be confident in passing...

i am such a stupid student.

3.16.2007

corpse bride

hell week level one finally over!!!

1 Philo Paper
1 Program Conceptualization
2 RC Paper
2 Powerpoint Presentations
2 Phil Hist Paper
and ONE BIG PLAY!

yes we did had a lot of flaws, i admit some of them are my own, but the feedback was so nice adn really heart warming! some of my friends said that it was one play na ayaw mong iwanan, that our actors were delivering their lines so good, our costumes were good too. haay! and not to mention that i was so proud of Hannah, our Victoria. they said that she looked like victoria herself. hannah is this classmate of mine who is really soft-spoken and my, what a transformation (?) she delivered her lines so well. she once asked me to appoint another victoria because she can;t do the job, but we believe in her so much and look! josh too, our bonejangles. we fought one time because he didn't want to sing minus-one. but i pushed it and told him that he was not meant to flop if that was what he was worried about.. and i got touched with what he said tonight:

joshua kho: haha
joshua kho: tnx kai 4 everythin
joshua kho: 4 givin me d courage..
joshua kho: ur d best

that was sweet. haaay. even maam cruz said our play was beautiful. everything paid off, everyone was so great..




mother stage manager,
now signing off. :)

3.11.2007

the fate-controlled-kai

admit, i am a dreamless person. i dream a lot ok, but those are called day-dreaming. i personally have no aim in life, no goals, my ambitions are too "ambitious" and honestly...

ang gulo.

ang gusto ko lang namang sabihin ay fate has always controlled me. and this previous AA elections was a another proof.

i was busy reading my history book during the elecetions (hehe, bakit ba may paper eh!) and didn't mind at all, basta may mga manok ako, yun na yun. but the over-unexpected thing happened, i was nominated as an auditor at nanalo ako. whoa.

up to know, hindi ko pa nadidigest ang nangyari. i was just reading about that religious schism and then here comes this job, this responsibility, bigger than me.. and i thought..

"gagu ka kai, lagot..."

God can be really weird sometimes. but whatever God's plan is, sige. i'll strive to be the best, weh? no promises attatched, hindi ko ipplease mga tao,


basta, yun na yun.

and also, maybe i should start believing in myself, they believe in me eh. sayang...

pero kung ibabagsak ako ng stat, bio at RC. shet! baka hindi talaga para sa kin ang trabahong ito :(

tae.

wag naman.


oh. pictures na lang!
this is toitoi and poipoi sa birthday ni nikki





si spongebob sa gitna.

nung nagkatampuhan kami ni lyca


me and my childhood-love ;)

3.08.2007

got me afraid to let myself go,
got me afraid to let my love go,
got me afraid to let myself go,
got me scared of you...