BAKIT?!

of chaos and ma'am cruz

At natapos din sa wakas ang linggong ito!!

3 play dates,
2 play,
10 shows,
pagiging assistant director,
at stage manager na rin,
gigising ng aalis ng bahay ng 5:30am,
uuwi ng 11:00pm,
nagkaron ng 2 quiz sa philo,
report sa bio na hindi matuloy-tuloy,
quiz sa bio na wala pa rin akong alam,
conceptualization sa dokyu,
report sa english,
demo sa english,
report sa RC na hindi pa rin natuloy,
isang HEAVY quiz sa RC,

SHET! BUHAY PA KO!!

but this week had some perks din :)

ma'am cruz funny-masungit-na-magaling-na-english-prof.
she gave me a compliment. hehe
we had this demo sa english kasi, newscasting! nem and i were the news anchors. she gave her comment and said that.. *sob* *sob*
she could see my future daw 3-5 years now, as a newscaster!
shet na malagket! gusto ko na sanang umiyak!!
i have a good voice daw the problem with me daw e
ang bilis ko raw magsalita and walang eye-contact. :)

aside from finishing the play, that was my cherry on top of this CHAOTIC WEEK!

where are all my insecurities coming from?

lately i've been feeling so insecure. this year i'll be turning 20 and i don't look like a year older than a 14 year old girl. i'm skinny. dark. with small boobs, no curves and a bird's nest i call as my hair. i'm in second year college and thanks to miss anita who designed the AB uniform, i perfectly look like a highschool, student stockingless in a pair of black pointed shoes.

i feel so ugly.

so ugly.

i've told you that a hundred times i guess.

i've spoke of it with sighs and a dreamy voice.

i've written it down withthe sweetest penmanship.

but, still, to no avail.

insensitivity is a choice..

fuck that.

GUSTO KO LANG NAMAN NG FLOWERS THIS VALENTINES!!!

hehehe :D

PARA!

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Ang Opisyal na Mandudula ng Fakultad ng Sining at Panitik...

Unibersidad ng Santo Tomas...

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Pero minsan tila wala yatang dumaraan para ika'y parahin. Kung meron man baka puno na o dili kaya'y hindi naman ang destinasyon mo ang ruta.

(Depende na lang kung sasabit ka o maghihintay ng iba pa...)

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PARA!

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Ngunit tandaan din na hindi naman laging ikaw ang dapat maghintay eh? Bakit hindi subukang ikaw naman ang magmaneho? Malay mo sa pagmamaneho mo, may makasama ka pa sa road trip ng puso mo!

PARA!Isang twin-bill all original production ng Artistang Artlets...

"Detour" Sa Panulat ni Joanna Marie Katanyag (MMDA Officer)

Sa direksiyon ni Jason dela Cruz (Ang Driver)

"One Way" Sa Panulat ni Michelle Ngu (MMDA Officer)

Sa Direksiyon ni John Emmanoel Moran (Ang Driver)

Sa Pamamahala ni Samantha Sanchez (Ang Kundoktora)

...ito ang PARA! makisakay na ngayong Pebrero!

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-original text by jmar castro

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salamat! :)

mater et magistra

today, i got turned-off by one of my respected priests..

we have this parish priest kasi na i idolize for his sermons, i think he's so organized, intelligent and all because he sees to it na he has this powerpoint presentation every sunday. so siya yung kinuha ko for that interview na mingu asked me to. knowing na he's good with lectures and all..

so after the mass i approached him in my very pasweet way. he smiled and said what was the interview all about, i said i would like to hear a comment on "mater et magistra" and the next things i heard were:

YOU'RE RIDICULOUS!

THIS IS CRAZY!

BWAHAHAHAHA!

I'm not ignorant!

You don't expect me to memorize the thousands of readings diba?

Kaw ba pagtinanong mo Lit prof mo about this certain book

mabibigyan ka ba niya ng overview? hindi diba?

I teach these lessons pero,

try GOOGLE!

YOU'RE RIDICULOUS!
THIS IS CRAZY!
BWAHAHAHAHA!

and so.. i did my plastic smile and my empathy statements "Yes, father i understand *hahaha*" but at the back of my mind, I COULDN'T AGREE. you teach this stuff, maybe you could at least have 2-3 sentences to give away, diba? with all due respect, i couldn't agree at all. if you would ask me literary stuff, maybe ask me to tell you the core of Steinbeck's classic "The Pearl", i could give you a paragraph of what was it all about! if you would come up to Sir Ferdie Lopez and ask him what Dead Stars is all about he could give you an hour and a half lecture about it, standing, with no book in hand. i know.

maybe i was judging you too much. siguro nga naman it's difficult. but, i got turned off just the same..

*sigh*

and to think na your homily was about humility, you could have said na you forgot, or you'd try to recall and make me come back, or something.. you said you know it, eh. and that you teach it, you burst my bubble..