1.04.2006

my inconsistency.

i went to national bookstore yesterday and read books and look what i got:

"Desire, Plato tells us, can be only for what we do not posess because, since, desire is the desire to posess, once we posess something, we can no longer desire for it."
- Michael Schwartz
"Since at every moment in our lives, we all have one foot in a fairy tale and the other in the abyss..."- Paulo Coelho, 11 Minutes
The first one maybe is the reason why crushes don't work out to be good partners.
The second is why we end up surveying the people we should love as contestants of a beauty pageant.

well i guess i'm just really confused with everything else. hmm.. he has a big problem. he told me that it was so big that he broke his family's trust that led him to *sad music insert here* stow away.. yes. he did and for 3 nights already he's been comforting himself inside this, erm.. inn. i do not know what to do, i called him and he was still that usual clown laughing about anything and everything about the world, pretending not to care. and that hurt me so much.. ayokong makita siya ng ganoon. i cannot do anything to help, he won't allow me to. i do not even know what the problem was. i wanted to talk with his siblings but FUCK that HOLD-UPPER again because he stole my phone with the sim with the numbers of his siblings!....... yes, i do still laugh. i still talk and scream and joke and fool around, but in the back of my mind, i'm praying for him to be safe...

"sensya n h?wg u ko
msydong cpin...k lng
me..."

Sent:
08:03:25am
01.04.2006

"u r...ikaw lng ang laging
andto 4 me..."

Sent:
02:49:04pm
01.04.2006

please go home, toitoi.. things will be alright again..

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