feeling lucky.. not!

nice! i left home early this morning because i wanted to be early for my p.e class and then surprise surprise! WALANG P.E!! argh! niwei.. so i decided to go to the library and spend my horrid hours there to study and then this certain MANONG GUARD won't let me in because of my bag! nakakairita talaga! i told him that i need everything inside that bag to study kaso wala ayaw niya talaga intindihin!! i was really, really, REALLY, REALLLLYYY PISSED OFF!!!

inhale.

anyways, i was just taking a break before i bury myself in my polsci book again..

*sigh*

there is a graded recitation today about the bill of rights.
a double murder quiz in philo.
and i am sure that i will come home late tonight.

welocme to college!

i'll make this fast... 1.. 2.. 3...

ayun! isa ito sa mga pagkakataong nabigyan ako ng chance para mag-blog at dahil sa super dami pa ng babasahin ko para sa graded katayan tomorrow sa pgc e sisimulan ko ng magbasa.. PROMISE!! there are 50+ leaves to be flipped. and i am so sick tonight.

ayan.. i bought my buddy some gummy bears and a bag of popcorn.. i miss my buddy. yes. i miss our nokbuk too...

hayy..
promise babasahin ko na talaga.

yup kimmy. TGIS.. Tiis Gutom Ipon Salapi. tama.tama.

isang panawagan sa lahat ng magulang

hindi ko maintindihan bakit lahat ng bagay na umuusbong sa akin ay kailangan niyong pigilan? lahat na lang ba ng tao, bagay at lugar na minamahal at mamahalin ko ay kailangan niyong ilayo sa akin? at sinasabi niyong hanapin ko kung saan nga ba ang puso ko.. pero lahat na lang ng bagay na gingugusto ko ay ayaw niyo..

what is so illegal about loving rock? what is so wrong with indulging myself with rock music? whats so wrong with bands whose amps play as loud as their passion?? why won't you let me love the things i love?? kung hindi mo kayang mahalin ang mga tao, bagay at mga paniniwalang mahal ko, hayaan niyo kong mahalin sila! hayaan niyo kong hanapin kung san ako mas magiging masaya!

kaya hindi ko makilala sarili ko... kaya hindi ako sigurado sa mga disisyon ko... kaya kahit sa kababawbawan na mga tanong tungkol sa pagkatao ko hindi ko masagot, kasi LAHAT DINIDIKTA NIYO!! LAHAT KAILANGAN SANG AYON SA PANANAW NIYO!! kasi kung hindi tugma sa mga iniisip niyo, mali na.. kung hindi niyo hilig, weird na.. kung hindi kaayaaya sa inyo, rebelyon na..

ilang beses niyo na bang sinabi na "buhay mo yan.."
e buhay ko pala to eh..

with all due respect,
let me have a life free from your dictatorshit.

pinipilit magising, pinipilit matulog...

inaantok na talaga ako pero wala pa ako paper para sa communication arts. hayy.. bakit nga ba nagba-blog ang mga tao? hmm...

philo. hayy.. ang baba talaga ng grade ko dyan. bad trip.

hmm.. kailangan talagang pag-igihan ko na lahat ng aking gagawin. tama na satsat.. gawa naman!

----nothing follows----

there are some things better left unsaid,
there are some things better expressed when sang...


"Fields Of Innocence"

I still remember the world
From the eyes of a child
Slowly those feelings
Were clouded by what I know now

Where has my heart gone
An uneven trade for the real world
oh I...
I want to go back to
Believing in everything and knowing nothing at all

I still remember the sun
Always warm on my back
Somehow it seems colder now

Where has my heart gone
Trapped in the eyes of a stranger
oh why...
I want to go back to
Believing in everything

someday i'll try to explain...

ang mga kaganapan kahapon...

shelf number 26
"you indeed are a distraction to my research...
bye"

hahaha nakita ko si ireg kahapon sa library.. sa shelf number 26.. haay.. hindi ko nga natapos yung research ko kasi ang sarap niya talaga pagmasdan! hahahaha bad trip friend ni myx yun tapos kapitabahay pa ni jose.. haay.. he doesn't even know my name... eto pa.. diba lit prelims namin kahapon, nagjumping kacks ako paglabas niya.. hehehe papampam!!

peak of recovery
sabi nga sa economics last year, sa stages of the business cycle. pagsuper depressed na ang economy papalapit na ang recovery stage.. ayan na.. sobrang gulo na sa pilipinas.. baka nga naman papalapit na talaga ang muling pagbangon ni juan... hmm...

frustration
g.a kagabi.. ayun nagdiscuss si kuya john about the things na dapat maacomplish namin. and meron pa nga kaming cute notebook na parang diary. hehehe ayun.. tapos tinawag na yung mga characters para sa play. almost all of my friends were there.. tinanong pa nga ako ni ate marianne kung tanggap ako sabi ko hindi.. ayun nabatukan ako.. si kuya mark tinanong din ako, sabi ko hindi.. napatinggin na lang siya sa akin.. parang imposible daw na hindi ako pumasa... haay.. ganun talaga.. ang tae ko kasi nung audition.. i feel like shit lately.. i feel so frustrated.. nanalo pa kong best supporting actress.. puta.. i feel like shit talaga... :(


on the other hand..
well anyways.. i'm happy naman na nasa set ako! and i get to work with my favorite director ulit diba! hehehe ganto na lang kai, gagalingan ko sa set.. you see, we need to be exposed in different aspects din naman, right? and besides kailangang bumawi this finals.. diba?

don't worry kai.. everything will be damn alright.. ;)

of flunking and standing again

shit. bagsak ako sa eco. isang tumatagingting na 74% sa prelims. utang na loob diba?? pero dun naman sa ibang test results na nakuha ko today. ayos naman. pasado naman. kailangang bumawi. kailangang bumawi! BUMAWI KA!!

hmm. ano pa ba pwede sabihin. ayun.sarap ng kinainan namin kanina sa conception street! woohhooo!!Hapag Kainan na tabi ng shakatak pagkamahal-mahal na momo's! sarap!! MMmmmm!! hehehehehe

ayan. simula nanaman ng bagong kalabryo sa buhay ng isang pagiging apprentice. eto nanaman kami sa late night outs. but not for fun.. gab,umaga,madaling araw at tanghalii ng mga ngaragan.. pera..pagod..puyat..gutom.. haay..

here we go again..

ps.
i won't neglect my studies this time
kai!!

Naaalala Mo pa ba yan? *sob*
Karla Pena

Sinubukan kong kutkutin ang ulo ko,
para kahit isa sa libong pangyayari
Na kasama kita eh
Mabuhayan ang dugo ko.

Nilalakad natin ang kahabaan ng Alabang,
Samu't-saring mukha ng rapist, mandurukot
Nadadaanan, tinitignan
Ngunit hawak mo ang kamay kong pasmado
Alam kong "okey ako sa olrayt"

Sa Jollibee,sa may Alabang pa rin
Kay lola, bumili ng yosi at kendi
Pula. Naisip ko tuloy:
Kasing kulay din ba ng yosi mo ang puso mo?
Natawa ako sa sarili ko,
Tinamaan ako!
Lahat na lang ng nasa paligid ko ay Pula.
Ang puso mo, ang yosi mo
Pati si Jollibee
Isa sa libong pangyayari
Na kasama kita.

Dunkin Donuts, next stop natin.
Mga tinapay na binalutan ng tsokolate
nasa korteng puso na lalagyan,umorder ka.
Magkatapat habang nalulunod sa mata mong
puno ng pagmamahal.
Naisipan ko tuloy umorder ng kape,itim.
Sing itim ng tsokolateng bumabalot sa
tinapay,
Sing itim ng pusong mong dati
nang nagpaluha sa 'kin.
Pagdating ng kape,napahigop sabay ngiti
Isa lang ito sa libong pangyayari
Na kasama kita.

(for toots)

hehe post ni ate karla sa bulletin. natuwa lang ako sa poem.
haay...

"Isa lang ito sa libong pangyayari
Na kasama kita."

mga hinanakit ng isang pulubi

ugh!well, after flunking my exams. we thought of loosin up. so we went out to eat. fay, angge, mingu, avery and gab. haay.. after eating dun sa mormolom grill, which by the way will be the first and last time na kakain kami dun, except na lang if it were the last resto on earth! we decided to hang out.. these were the choices, the pros and cons:

1. gateway----------wala naman kami pera
2. bahay ni mingu---------hmmmn.ano gagawin daw dun?
3. bahay ko---------- paano uuwi si mingu?
4. antonio's----------well, inuman. san un?
5. bahay ni angge--------paano ulit uuwi si mingu?

until we decided to go to mingu's house. blah blah problem was walang transpo, pero that was solved naman by commuting, problem again was mingu doesn't know public transo to their house. so in the end hindi na kami natuloy anywhere but to go home...

another is that.today was Parokya ni Edgar's new album launching. ampota and i have no money to buy that cd!!Myx even invited me to come and watch Parokya sa Araneta.. problem was it was POURING hard rain outside and still no money for me to be able to survive.

"i am so dang broke" like i always say.. good thing was i was able to go home naman all in one piece.

give me a job you guys. :(

i hate to say this but..

i really think i'm flunking this sem. i really am feeling it punching. shit. this was the first time that i took a test with no sure answer. not a single answer that i can bet my life with. philo. ugh! i really feel so stupid! i'm dying.. really.


the mupoitoi story:

poipoi went to market to meet toitoi.
poipoi got a bit late for poipoi's obligation.
but poipoi love being with toitoi.
poipoi enjoyed.

an epitome of what a student shouldn't be:
me.

well..i really hate the topic tenses in english and yep that was hell for me. history? ugh! niwei.. after school, i didn't go home immediately. i was to fix some icky problems at that time and decided to do things alone. went to mega actually. and waited.. for someone to come.

i concluded that "intensive walking leads you to intensive self-questioning"<---such a word?

ye. that when you walk for about 3 miles, alone, you get to think alot of things you normally wouldn't think about. mine was: how on earth did i get this submissive?

i was so pathetic 5 hours ago. and oops.. ahhh!!! i was walking diba? then blah blah blah and guess what! i saw my childhood love! hahaha well.. i was too shy to walk up and say hi. so.. yun.. it ended there.

well.. i really have to start studying now..right.
eco, please don't flunk me.

ugh!

there are sp many things to do that my incapable mind can't think of ways and means to solve them all but, sleep. hehehe hayy.. i have to study pa for the freaking-pain-in-the-butt prelims, i'm so broke, and dang! i sure do miss you alot na... and your frickin phone won't even ring..

my bestfriends or should i say my allegedly called "barx" (eii! feel uncomfortable using that word!! i'm anti-social!!haha) niwei they were here last night and we went to Nature Camp, the venue for my contoversial "debut".. not that it's flooded with issues, wala lang. i just think it's way too controversial for me. mama's making such a big fuzz out of it. fine, well actually masaya kasi mama's preparing for that ladyish celebration, i appreciate it, really. pero kasi on the other hand, i'm just so scared for 2 reasons:

1. mag-invite ako and no one will come
2. mag-invite ako, they'll come, pero ma-bore sila..

argh!! and THE September prod's coming na.. and i'm so damn scared about it!
pathetic!

hey.. i miss you.

The female voice, according to Islâm, is also included in the category of satar, i.e. it has to be 'concealed' and not 'revealed' . Since the female voice is an entity not to be displayed or advertised, it is not permissible for males to listen to women singing or even reciting the Qur'ân

"A woman is an object of concealment."

Nah. Just found that while I was actually researching things to understand the lessons in my major subject. Imagine. Women are supposed to be concealed... women are of sacred voices... or maybe women were technically banned from speaking up, that I adamantly disagree.

I have whole lot of reviewing to do and I still am nowhere.
I'm hungry.

Presenting...
My Late Posts...

073005

wait lang.

yun. last night was the awards night. i went to school unprepared. no jologs artist to impersonate. no costume. no chuva. no chenes. nothing at all! ugh. so what i did was to buy stuff from the on going bazaar sa colayco. i lost 200 over a chipipay skirt that i didn't wear by the way. it's a long story.. blah blah that i ended up imitating jopay/rochelle of the sex bomb dancers. well anyways..

AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!! harharhar
all the tears, the blood, the bruises, the sweat, the hunger, the sleepless nights, the review-less days all paid off.. everything was worth it.. yes.. because Philosancti recieved 4 awards!!
+best script!
+best make up and costume design
+best ensemble+umm.. best supporting actress for aling tonya. ;)

i was happy, we were happy no doubt. ha! i love my group, i love philosancti so much! <3
the kokomban group would like to thank:
+ate fatso
+kuya tupe
+ate mayi
+ate rocky
+ate mina
+kuya john
+kuya diego
+of course, ate kay and ate marian
+GOD.thank you po.
thank you thank you thank YOU!

umm..back to my chores. right.

073005-2
the misadventures of the aa apprentices of year 2005.. abowgah!

hmm.. colayco at 11am. today was the art app, we're going to watch this certain play entitled "karsel" after hours of getting all dried up under the sun, we finally made our way to the play.. making our way means, taking public transpo. yup. commute tayo,'day.

there are 16 of us and 15 (yah.including ,me) who knows nothing where the hell are we going. good thing jon was a navigator, a man who knows east from west, and quite familiar with the biiyoootiful city of manila! we went to pedro gil manila, in cardinal jaime sin building. at nagsusumigaw ang sign na: "sandos, mini skirts, chuva" are not allowed inside.
yah the chuva part is not real, ofcourse. pero yun si joi (the director of artista de santissima) kasi was wearing a mini skirt.pero kamusta naman?when we went inside almost every guy were wearing jerseys, girls were wearing nothing. yah, too much brown irritated skin. kamusta naman diba?

ayy! wait before we were allowed to go inside nga pala, a certain barakuda stopped us. at nahampas niya si nice sa braso! and take note, TWICE! kamusta naman diba? that was so rude of her. to think na, as i assumed and soon found out my assumptions were true, that she holds a position in a certain somethingsomething place, DIBA?? ugh! hated her!

the open house : quiapo central market. true. everyone was so damn noisy. busy babbling with each other. kamusta? play ito diba? and so the barakuda went up the stage and tried to tame the house down..

bara: tumahimik nga kayo!!
crowd: oooohhh..
bara: ano ba?! magsitahimik kayo!
crowd: oooohh...
bara: aba!! binabastos niyo ko?? ititigil ko tong palabas na to!
crowd: ooohh...

all that we could say was: "O-M-G whatta crowd!"
the play started..and ended with stupid students who couldn't keep their mouth shut.the script was super, too bad the actors can't deliver the lines properly because of the wild-mob crowd they had as an audience!
haay..this day was pretty exhausting. ENJOY!hahahaha

073005-4
my emo-ego

if tomorrow will be the day that you'll leave me,
i'll try to hold back the sun from rising...

"hanggang kailan ako maghihintay na makasama ka?"-Orange and Lemons

hanggang kailan nga kaya itong paghihintay ko sa wala..hirap na ko..hirap na hirap na sa mga pananakit mo..ganito ka ba talaga magmahal?ganito mo rin ba sila minahal?....

080105
taking a break.

well... i really can't study well tonight! ugh! you know why? because your freaking face is so randomly disturbing me!!! ugh!!! you, kuya tagakolekta-ng-bayad-sa-FX/L300/Adventure-sa-LRT-Santolan-Station!! kaasar talaga!!! akalain niyo ba naman! pinahiya kami nitong lalakeng to na we thought e friend chuva chums chums na namin because lagi naman namin siyang nakakausap! BUT NO!!! he embarassed us sa sandaigdigang mga commuter dun sa L300!!

grabe!! kasi we were talking ni fay, kwento cherlaloo lang naman and then he sat beside us and said really annoying things!! na ang ingay daw namin achuchuchoo! na kesyo magsumbong pa daw kami kong sino sino!! ewan!! PROBLEMA MO HA???

you know what? hey AB students listen up! HE BELITTLES AB STUDENTS, kasi nga naman he is a student from the college of engineering from a freaking i-don't-know-what-school! ugh!! he really PISSES ME OFF!!!!! argh.argh!ARGGHHHHH!!!!

still not ok..i have tons of things to do and that guy still really boils my frikin blood! KAKAIRITA!!

well back to my awful readings.
*PGC- Article 2
*PGC- The Republic by Plato [term paper]
*Literature- Ars Poetica [quiz]
*Philosophy- Cosmology
*Theology- The Life of Jesus [for the prelims]

stress.stress.stress.

dang!

i sure have a lot of crap to blog, but as of now.. i am trying to defy gravity, stopping the hands of time, absorbing things as big as China, argh!

in panic,
kai

ps
i'm flunking eco
ps again
im flunking philo
ps ulit
im flunking PE!!!
ps last na to
i should really start working on my PGC now.tama!

Puhleesee!!

ugh! my mouth is the melting pot of the whole mouth-sore civilization.
i can't speak properly without at least, hurting myself. ahhhh!!! these singaws are so world record!! eew. anyhoo..

here hangin out sa netopia,dapitan. with mingu and kc doing their critiqpapers. well as for me, i did that crap last night,sosyal!hahaha pero kamusta naman?ano daw yun? dapat daw letter yung proj sa english.shocking bananas!! ahhhh!!! cram.cram.cram!!

too late. it's like somethingsomething before 11 and we should be headin out na.. haay..

hungry,
kai

ps.
i think i better ask lolo for the new phone now.
right!
lolo?lolo.. yoohooo.. *snickers*