5.31.2006

when will sorrow find its own grave

when will sorrow find it's own grave?

ang sagot ni kaibigang nurse rachel, a newly found friend from ambergris solutions...

rachel: 'pag namatay yung sorrow... kasi diba? mga namamatay lang ang napupunta sa grave?

tae. siya nga naman. sorrow will be delivered to its grave when it dies. if it dies.

so....


DIE NOW!!

DIE!!

5.24.2006

a serious post

May 23rd
to: my younger cousin.

i wanted to protect you.
i wanted to save you from all the mishaps of your own making.
i wanted to.
i wanted you to realize all of that,
that i wanted you to change.
that i wanted you to know you were wrong,
and that you should do something about it.
but you never listened to the words that i never said.
you never even tried to decipher what i wanted you to
KNOW.
you never took it seriously.
and you did it again.
caught you red handed, your eyes were eyes of someone i do not know.
eyes of which i fear to see in the wee hours of the morning.
your eyes delivered tears in my eyes.
don't i deserve a little respect?
to be treated like that?
don't i deserve to be respected?
and now i was told to let everybody know.
so i did.
they have to.
and you have to know too.
not to sneak into my room,
in about 2 in the morning.
not to...
no, they don't have to know everything.
though it pains me to be all alone in this,
it'll be between you and me.
read what i am not writing.
hear what i am not saying.
heed what i am not imploring.
we'll leave it that way.
because,
you need respect.
you need love.
especially when you do not actually
deserve it.

from: ate kai

5.21.2006

a review of almost everything

DA THE VINCHI CODAH.

i was pretty excited to watch this film, you know, excited to see how they were able to squeeze a full novel to 2 and a half hours.. excited to see how they were able to plot things as mr. dan brown did.. i was having happy thoughts then when this certain voice interrupted my train of thoughts..

the sta. lu peeps : 18 lang po pwede.
kai: i'm 18.
the sta.lu peeps: may i.d ka ba?
kai: i'm 18!! september 21, 1987, hello im turning 19 this september, im employed, incoming second year college of THE university of STO TOMAS!! hello??
the sta.lu peeps: sorry talaga, masyadong kontrobersial ang movie. hindi pwede.
kai: hello?? ikwento ko pa sa inyo yan! (weh? nasa page 24 pa lang ako..) nabasa ko na rin ANGELS and DEMONS, ano ikwento ko?? (hindi mo pa rin tapos, may 3 chapters left pa)

i was so pissed! why?? judging me because of my HEIGHT!! tae. i hate being small! i walked out, called my mother, and gahd, she was laughing, ok pissed me more. so i went back to my father to tell him i going home kasi NATAPAKAN pagkatao ko, when i saw him holding 2 tickets. hehe ok na raw.. magic!

the movie started. ok. the movie's starting. uhh.. ok. nevou was there, langdon, ok. sauniere. ok. yeah. ok. umm.. yeah.

CONTROVERSIAL?
KONTROBERSYAL?

which part? that mary magdalene was the wife of jesus and that they had a child, that was the foregrandeiestmother of this officer nevou who was the "grandaughter" of saunier who was killed by the albino named silas who was under the opus dei faith. ok. that was it. it didn't quite pinned me to my seat. well, i was.. as if i have a choice.

the influx of people were naturally because of man's ultimate pakiki-usi. usiyoso. whatever the spelling may be, it's because people were CURIOUS. and since pinoys are damn too curious about everything else, DA VINCI's earning here. but once the word-of-mouth takes place, bye DA VINCI. i know not everyone was impressed. Tom Hanks admitted that he wasn't at his best in that movie. tsk tsk tsk. guess, ANGELS and DEMONS will not exist if this movie won't even have a break-even profit. gahd. ECO.

ECO's finally over! hahaha and i flunked my finals. yeah yeah yeah. i'll do a tribute post to eco. next time.

well, as for my CCA job. i'm having this info overload. and i'm really not doing that well. last friday we had our call simulation chevers and it really MADE my day. i stuttered. and my locomotor skills were disabled, as well as my thinking ability. grar.. bottom line was, tama ako sa mga ginawa ko pero alam na alam ko naman na tyamba lang yun.. ugh. pissed.

((amoy med building sa bahay namin ngayon, yung smell ng morgue sa med.?)

5.15.2006

here i go again...

I see them, and all I feel is insecurity and envy. If only I could be where they are now. If I weren't lazy, procrastinating, and afraid of facing and doing the right things, I could have been like them, people who have the urge of moving their way to do what they have to do. What seems to be wrong? Why am I avoiding the things that I really want to do? When will I finally take that step and not just dare myself to do so? What am I so scared of?

was too early for my eco class so i decided to treat myself for a P20 worth of airconditioning, a seat and an hour of internet surfing. i miss blog hopping and went through my kada's blog, and was able to come up to the somnambulist's site.

lately i was just happily going with the flow of everything, be contented where the wind takes me and when i read her posts it dawned on me again. i was actually floating to nowhere...
i was really direction-less.
empty handed.
no mission.
no goal.
no ambition.
no evertyhing.
NOTHING.

francis and i had a talk yesterday. asking how was my first 3 days of training, i said it went ok and here's what he said.

cis: nagulat nga si ate mineh pano ka natanggap dun eh.

see. even my own mother doubts how i was able to get the job (as a trainee). that was really something. and i am still NOTHING.

i have a serious problem with knitting my words when speaking, have a terrible problem with grammar and they're all wondering how i came this far.. i am wondering.

maybe i really have an ambition.

all i ever wanted was to be happy. and to make ALL of YOU happy. i want to make my parents proud. i just want to know ME. and that i CAN do something worthwhile.

...na hindi ako bobo tulad ng iniisip niyo..

5.14.2006

zzzzzzzzzz...

1. complete this phrase: "i could have been.." more confident if it weren't for..

2.what is the wallpaper on your cellphone?.. the pig i drew during our personality test, a pig named toitoi! :)

3.did you get enough sleep last night?..hahaha no!

4.first thing you thought about this morning when you woke up?i wish he was hugging me kanina, lamig eh!

5. do u ever wonder why the sky is blue?.. i used to. but then i have a lot of things to attend to.

6. ever tried to skip meals?.. oo naman.

7. grilled or fried?.. fried!

8. what makes you unique from others?.. i'm unpredictable. weh??

9. are you afraid of the dark?.. sometimes.

10. favorite hangout?.. kat's and mingu's house. oogles.

11. people you can't live without?.. family, barx, kada, lahat na!

12. first thing you will buy if given 1 thousand dollars?.. erm.. laptop na rin!

13. favorite song when you're sleepy?.. tummy ache by sugarfree

14. what are you afraid of?.. isolation, snakes and everything else!!

15. are you a giver or taker?.. giver.

6. if you could choose another name for yourself,what would it be?.. hmm.. france?

17. what is your mom's name?..minerva

18. most recent movie that you watched?.. the wild!

19. invisible for a day, what would you do?.. spy on my toitoi.

20. stuck on a desert island & could have only one kind of food for the rest of your life, what would it be?dunkin donuts.

21. favorite tv commercial?.. fita, coke, mcdo, globe.

22.if you were dead and your soul was given another chance, what would you do first?.. say sorry to my parents, kiss them if possible. thank my friends for everything. find my ex and see if he's doing fine. find my current and say everything i want and what he needs to hear.

23. if you could choose your eye color,what color would you like to have?..fine with what i have.

24. what are the things you always bring?.. phone, powder, gloss, money.

25. what did you wanna be when you were a kid?.. a gymnast! hehehe dahil kay pink ranger!

26. what do you usually do when the clock turns 7am?.. ahhhh.. try to wish i was in a different dimension.

27. the color of your bedsheet?..pink?

28. any messages?.. ok lang yan wag lang magdrugs.

week 2

ok. so things are getting worse now. i have to accomplish a lot of things tomorrow and i wonder if i can succesfully do that! here are the list of things i have to shake the heavens for:
  • an nbi clearance
  • sss something something
  • my driver's license
  • drug test

and i can't skip class anymore because if i do, dr. lopez will definetely flunk me.

i just realized a lot of things...

argh.

5.12.2006

an amateur nocturnal baby

sorry haven't been posting lately. been BUSY for the past few days. and i'm really.. umm.. trying the best i could to keep up.

here's my schedule from now on:

8:00am- i wake up
11:00am- off to school
1:00-3:00pm- the friggin' eco class

then i'll proceed to pasig. sleep for an hour and a half. get dressed.

6:00- leave for market!market!
((never take the company's shuttle becase they'll shut the life off of you))
7:00pm-12:00mn- the whatchamacallit training.
1:00am- time of epected arrival at home
2:00am- expected time of dozing off

and it goes rounf and round....

ugh. life's getting harder. and it will definetly be EXTRA HARDERERESTIEST once school has opened. tae. tae. tae.

need a lot of miracles, prayers, multivitamins and coffee. grrr..

need love. GIVE ME SOME LOVVIN'!! nyahahahahaha!!

5.07.2006

got this from a guy who wants FHM's May ish.

001: Real Name
Therese Ma. Francesca

002. Nickname
Kai,Dokito, Kookie, Kakay, Kie, Poipoi

003. Single or taken
taken??

004. Zodiac Sign
Virgo

005. Male or Female
Female

006. Elementary School
St. Paul College, Pasig

007. Ipod
too poor to have one.

008. How many buddies on your list
100+ i think.

009. friendster name:
kai-dox

010. Hair Color
Black

012. Hair Long or Short
long.

014. Eye Color
brownish?

015. Are you health freak .
yeah?

016. Height .
badword.

017. Do you have a crush on someone?
yup. isang taga-cainta.

018. Do you like yourself
-_-

019. Braces?
nope.

020. Think your awesome?
sometimes.

021. Piercings .
yup. one on each ear.

022. Tattoo
nope.

___Your 'Firsts'___

024. Surgery
hmm.. wala pa.

025. First piercing
way back in kinder. sa baranggay hall. libre e.

026. First best friend
hmm. Roy. my rug doll.

027. First Award
nursery. Most Helpful!

028. First Sport You Joined
Track.

029. First pet
Dog. i think it was brownie.

030. First vacation
hmm.. bicol? where our bus turtled and alsmost killed us three..

031. First Concert
hmm. i think it was a gary v. concert my yaya took me there. without the permission nor knowledge of my parents.

032. First love
aww.. si "J" my puppy love. hehehe

___Favorites___

033. Favorite movie
finding nemo.

034. Favorite tv show
7th heaven?

035. Color
Black and Blue

036. Music
sanlibutan. but i prefer OPM rock.

039. Drink
c2 apple. or water.

040. Body part not on the face
shoulders. i have little shoulders, i like it.

041. Cartoon
any.

042. Favorite piece of clothing
tank tops. weh??

043. Brand Of Clothing
artwork?

044. What do you sleep with
pillows

045. Favorite School
hard to decide.

046. Favorite Animal(s)
DOG!

047. Favorite Book
Tuesdays with Morrie. ABNKKBSBPLA ko??

048. Favorite Magazines
FHM. bakit. it can also be For Her Magazine.

___Currently___

049. Eating
nothing.

050. Drinking
water

052. I'm about to
sleep.

053. Listening to
the industrial fan.

055. Waiting For
the end of this survey.

056. Watching
my cursor blink.

057. Wearing
tanktop. and boardshorts.

___Your Future___

058. Want Kids?
i'd love to have. 2.

059. Want to Get Married?
yes.

060. Careers in Mind
a businesswoman. a member of an NGO. a teacher. a wife.

_Which is better with the Opposite Gender

068. Lips or Eyes
Eyes

069. Hugs or Kisses
Hugs.

070. Shorter or Taller
Taller.

072. Romantic or Spontaneous
Spontaneous.

073. Nice stomach or nice arms
arms.

074. Sensitive or Loud
Sensitive.

075. Hook-up or Relationship
relationship.

076. Sweet or Caring
when he's caring he's sweet.

077. Trouble Maker or Hesitant .
neither?

___Have you ever___

078. Kissed a Stranger
no.

079. Drank bubbles
bubbles?!

080. Lost glasses/contacts
YEAH. a jeep ran over it.

081. Ran Away From Home
nope

082. Broken a bone
nope.

083. Got an X-ray
a hundred times.

084. Broken Someone's Heart
yes. i did.

086. Turned Someone Down
yes. can't teach me to love him again. after 10 years?enuf.

087. Cried When Someone Died
CRIED.

088. Cried at school
hahaha yes definitely!

___Do You Believe In___

089. God
YES

090. Miracles
that's why im still alive.

091. Love at first sight
sometimes...

093. Aliens
before..

094. Magic
no. those are illusions.

095. Heaven
yes.

096. Santa Claus
dati. pero i saw my mom sneaking gifts.

097. Sex on the first date
they happen, but not with me.

098. Kissing on the First Date
yeah.

099. Angels
yup.

___Answer Truthfully___

100. Is There someone You Want To be with right now?
ofcourse. YOU.

movie reviews

saturday; M:I-3

was with my dad and we watched tom cruise's M:I-3. whoa. the eeffects were nice and the action scened were really something to drool over that my feet were never on the ground. hehehe i enjoyed it. really.

and i just realized that the action films here in the phillipines are way TOO far from the action films abroad. take for example the explosive cars, the cars that are meant to be exploded, or whatever. basta yung pinapasabog ma car. M:I-3 used a FERRARI. while here in the Philippines, pabulukan ng L300 na van. tsk tsk tsk low budget.

sunday: the wild

i was suppose to attend the interment of my mother's aunt but my goddaughter, (tama ba?) called and reminded me that i have a date with her today. can't burst her bubble so i fetched her and watched Walt Disney's The Wild. it was just like Madagascar, which i happened to watch over at kat's house, these animals dreaming to go to THE wild. well anyways. the film was---CUTE. no other way to describe it but CUTE. "i'm so cuddly, i like you" hehehe

and as usual Walt Disney made me cry again. the story was mainly about a father and son relationship, a LION and his cub. and those who really know me, knows that any fathery film can make me cry. and yes it did.

"i just want you to know that i'm sorry that you didn't have a father like the one i have.."
-Ryan (Cub) to Sam (Lion)
waah!! sinong di iiyak dun?? well anyways...

and speaking of movies...

"I wanna be like those girls in the movies, to have a man so inlove it makes them drop to their knees"- Movies, Ashanti

and i think i just felt like one. he has been unusually sweet lately.. last thursday he arranged a get together here in my house, kat, nikki and him came over. had small talks with my parents, barking marathon with dear nemo, played chess, ate dinner and had tons of pictures.

the next day he told me to go to kat's place and we cooked pancit canton, and.. haay..

and last night till 2am of today, he was so.. NICE. and SWEET and cheesy and mushy.. calling me petnames i'm really not comfortable to hear but it really sound so, so, sweet.

tama na. ang corny na. just can't help but feel, happy...

5.03.2006

boracay pictures and more chevers

hehehe at dahil masipag pa ko mag-post aabusuhin ko na rin.. pero in bullet form kasi tinatamad na ko...

DAY 1







  • iba ang kaliwa ng mga batangueno sa mga taga-manila.
  • kasi niligaw nila kami sa pier.
  • flirt ang mga tao sa barko.
  • pinicturan-slash-ni-video kami ng isang mamang nagngangalang dante.

na may dalang 5 san mig!

  • Nilalagnat ako.

DAY 2

  • masarap ang batchoy sa kalibog este kalibo..
  • pero maasim ang mukha ng tindera
  • Ginto ang computer sa caticlan.
  • Rare species ang internet cafe/PC rental sa kalibo
  • Pumunta kaming Devas, ay Nabas pala!

DAY 3

  • ((ngayon pa lang kami pupunta ng bora))
  • it's may 1-----MAKULIMLIM!

  • nasirang BIGLA ang camera ko!!
  • umulan.. UMULAN!!!!

  • sumakay kami sa isang BANKA (yung walang bubong ha?) para sumakay sa mismong sasakyan naming BANKA (yung may bubong na) ng biglang BUMAGYO!!!!! kamusta?? hindi mabalanse yung banka tapos umuulan!!!
  • ANG LAKAS NG RAKET!!!
  • at may gwapo akong nakilala sa banka (yung may bubong) si ERICH (lalake na kamukha ni chito miranda, a fresh graduate) at si DON na guwapow! hehehe well.. oo na.. hindi talaga ako yung nakipagkilala. si sir erik, yung boss-na-alaga ng nanay ko. tssss...
  • umuwi kaming BASANG BASA SA ULAAAAAN!!! and swore never to return to bora evahhh!!!!

DAY 4

  • uuwi na raw kami.
  • pero ang ganda ng araw kaya joy and i decided to go to bora. hehe
  • ng kaming dalawa lang, bwahahahahaha!!!
  • nag-almusal ng G.G at noodles kasi MAHAL ang pagkain.

  • at nagbabad....

  • at umuwi...




5.02.2006

BORE-a-KAI

that's how i spell boracay now. boracay's not really that beautiful. sir erik was right, bora was excessively advertised, falsely advertised that is. he met about 23 foreigners and they all said the same thing. they were disappointed, and will not come back to boracay again. and i assume these are the reasons:
  1. poor service
  2. world class beach??
  3. haywired system
  4. crazy ports
  5. in tagalog--- MALAKAS ANG RACKET!

masyadong mayabang ang boracay. ang liit liit naman ng ipinagmamayabang. kapag hindi yan naagapan sayang, damay buong Pilipinas. nakakalungkot talaga.. lalo na kung pupunta ka ng boracay na SIRA ANG CAMERA!!!!!!!!!!