of things almost despaired of

...
i do not know exactly what to say.
but i still keep on praying...
even God may be confused of what i really am pleading for,
but i will still keep on praying.
...

things are really harsh now.
i feel so helpless.
people won't understand.
people won't listen.

and sometimes how do you know
na nagdadrama lang ang isang tao?
how would you separate a heartfelt sorrow
from a scripted a scripted one?

i am so confused.
i am crying.
i am deeply hurt.

how come SA AMIN NANGYAYARI ITO??
what bad thing have we done to deserve this?!
i am searching for answers...