PAPAITAN (bitter-bitteran)

sabi ni marlon:

"Meron din naman mga taong hindi makaintindi ng maayos

o siguro naman nagpapaka-bobo lamang sila. Pinapahirapan lang nila ang sarili nila. Masyado kasing dakila at maliwanag ang pag-ibig na alam nila, sa sobrang liwanag maari na itong makabulag."

kahapon din inabutan ako ni marlon ng magazine na:

"6 Signs that says when to LET GO"

talaga nga naman..

bobo.

there's something about kai

i'm starting to believe what mr. gabriel mari oblefias told me...

"there's something in you na kakaltok-kaltok!"

and this is how my day started..

left early and about 6 am i was already at the station. fell in line, paid a P14.00 fare to legarda, the guy infront of me dropped a peso pa nga, pinulot ko and i thought maybe i was lucky for today. haha when i reached the platform, i was just in time, entered the car and umupo dun sa gilid so that i can atleast lean and continue my indecent sleep, when suddenly:

"para po sa mga pasahero, tayo po'y lumabas sa tren.salamat"

shrugged it off, it happens all the time naman. so i went back in line so that i could catch the right train, but then again...

"para po sa mga pasahero na nasa platform na, wala po tayong operation mula santolan hanggang katipunan. paumanhin sa abala"

nung una hindi ko pa naintindihan, so i waited for a few minutes, hoping that maybe the train will be right back on the track, but no. ang galing. so i decided to take a jeep to cubao, norbecks texted said that she's stuck in santolan too. great. now there's company, at least!

whoa. if only i could show you the picture na naabutan ko when we left the station.. it's people power+ alay lakad+ the feast of the black nazarene. whoa. tae tae. ANG DAMING TAE.. este.. TAO. saw dianne, now there's three of us stuck in santolan.

waited. till the freaking volume of people would disappear.. then came mark francisco (a new classmate of ours ^_^) which makes 4 people waiting for a miracle..

and then 3hours passed.. and we're stuck.

then we saw a batchmate of mine, muriel, who suggested that we take a pedicab from somewhere to therewhere. we desperately agreed, and while we were walking to that place that will lead us eventually to another dimension, this stupid jeep kundoktor called me, HAD EYE CONTACT WITH ME:

"miss sabit ka na! kapit ka sa 'kin!!"

such an eager freak!! of all the people na tatawagin at gagaguhin, AKO PA?!!

and then thanks to his katutuboness a cab drove by, pinara namin, but muriel was nowhere to be found. tae. we had no choice but to grab the oppurtunity and well.. umm.. leave muriel. tae. kargo de konsensya talaga.

we were 6 in a cab, the four of us + a pregnant lady+a senior citizen of the republic. ok. kawawang mark, naging contortionist for 15minutes.

then we reached cubao station, sweating like pigs, at 9:30am. took the freaking lrt. took a jeep. ran. and was just in time for our LAST CLASS for the DAY.

talk about misadventures.

blah blah had lunch, attended a meeting, cheered for the tigers and went home. took a bus because the lrt's down. bought this coke in can para naman hindi tuyo lalamunan ko...

at sumakay itong si bata at si lola na tumabi sa kin, nginitian ko yung batang lalake. alam niyo ba sinabi?

"akin na lang yan!! (coke) "

sabay hablot sa walang kalaban-laban kong inumin.

pati ba naman BATA??? iniisahan pa ko?! BINUBURAUTAN PA KO?! shyeeet.

at hindi pa dun natapos yun nung bumaba yung bata. namatay ang makina ng bus at hindi na nagstart. so we have to go down at lumipat sa isa pang bus, and guess what nung nakaupo na ko, UMANDAR ANG TAENG BUS! so we have to transfer again. o diba, parang pass-the-passengers game lang. ugh!

kaya naman i'm so afraid to go to work tonight. baka kasi hindi pa dun natatapos ang pang-popower trip ng mundo sa kin. haay...

maybe there' s something in kai na kakaltok-kaltok talaga...

the moon is twice as lonely

i hope that what economists tell us about business cycle is right.
that whenever you reach that point of depression, the point of recovery is just around the corner.
God, let me not be walking in circles.


whatever i do, i feel so depressed. i tend to connect everything i see with metaphors and figures and symbols that all have but one mission to make me cry.

abnormal ba?

i'm sorry but that's how i feel. i tend to empathize about every inch of everythig else. i'm so tired. from all the stress, the work, the responsibility, the insecurities, anxieties..

it's just the 2nd week of classes and i'm so tired about everything else..

"YOU CHOSE THIS BUSY LIFE."

i know. i wanted to help..

it sucks to see your mother cry over a mundanely thing called money.

recap

i totally forgot about the compre exam! i was doing my homework for tomorrow. i should really unlearn to procrastinate. i should be responsible enough na. myself depends on me. weh?

so.. got late for my first class today, but FORTUNATELY si sir brillo ang teacher. nyahahaha come on that prof's always late.. well, for a good cause naman. hehe he went to our class at about 8am, but our class was suppose to start at 7am.. but i still missed his class, gab and i ate sa lovelite kanina e. well anyways..

sabi ni pareng ehji, magbitamina.
-maybe i need centrum
-tska iron supplement ek ek

sabi ni mareng jmee
-sana daw masaya ako...











masaya nga ba ako?

kai not dead... YET.

okay it was the first day of classes.
okay it was the x day of phonelab.
okay i am really in for a spin!

you see i came home last night (?) about 1am, fell asleep around 2? and then woke up at 5am. now tell me, is there something decent there? *sigh*

left for school about 5:45am, good thing mama's supportive (?) enough to bring me to the train station. arrived school just in time to meet with our AD for the recruitment-slash-spoof day. then at about 7:45am i finally entered by room..

blah blah. natsci.finance.marketing. whoa.

and then met up with him at about 12nn, gave him his money.. stayed 'till 1:30pm.
went home, arrived at about 2pm.

watched wowowee. laughed. got pissed.
slept.woke up.ate.took a bath.
and the next thing i know, i'm on my way to work.
will receive a call, be qaed (quality analyzed), get a low score,
cry, go home and feel like a total loser,sleep,
and wake up to continue my life as a student...

i know that i should quit. but, since i started working, i realized a lot of things.

primarily: WE'RE SO POOR.

and it just makes me cry now and then. that i was such a brat all this time. kept on asking for things that i really can get by without, spending money.. tae. napakapulubi pala namin. i want to help. but.. there are some things that i know i can't deal with...

HEALTH.

and no, i won't risk my studies. it's worth P33,000+!


2 of my calls will be qaed today, i'm so scared. tomorrow will be the comprehensive exam, then the passfail day, if i pass. ok. if i don't it's ok.

Lord, i'm leaving my life in your hands....