ineffectivity

feel so bad lately. so many things to do.. i want to run away and hide and.. actually... sabi ko lang yun. I can't and won't walk out of everything. it's just that, lately, i really feel so weak and stupid... ewan.

tv prod's becoming... can't even find the words to describe my ranting. my contact said they're interested and then after a few text messages, suddenly parang ayaw na. haay. i hope they'd reply soon.

major prod. haay.

auditor.auditing.fs. basta yun na.

family problems.

humihilab na sikmura ko sa panahon at mga pagkakataong hindi ko maibalance.
sarap isuka.

sabi ko lang yun. :(

YOU ARE SO WEAK SO DAMN WEAK. USELESS. TANGINA ANG BOBO BOBO MO. WALA KANG KWENTA! NAPAKAHINA MONG TAO!!I DON'T KNOW WHY YOU EVER EVER DESERVED TO HAVE THAT THING THAT PEOPLE GRANTED YOU. EH BOBO KA NAMAN. ALL YOU DO IS TO PERFECTLY DO EVERYTHING THE WRONG WAY!! KAI NAPAKATANGA MONG TAO!!!!

NAPAKAHINA MONG TAO!! SOBRANG..

i wish i have lots of time

proper time management. that's how stage managers do it. but sometimes, and that sometimes happens a lot nowadays, i rarely have time for anything at all. but anyways.. here's the list of things i have to juggle.

• TV Prod- i am the director next week!
• Have to do letters for Coffee shop, still for TV Prod.
• PM. i am the production manager for the major prod. wow.
• venue. venue? venue?!
• money.money? MONEY!!!
  

so there. it doesn't seem a lot but it is more than a handful. really. so there. actually, i'm just waiting for my fucken boyfriend to call... ayan tumawag na siya... hehe tata!