4.17.2006

late posts

sorry i haven't been blogging lately. well, first of all i'm busy.. busy doing nothing as usual.
so ano nga ba mga nangyari sa 'kin these past few days...


ALAY LAKAD
as a penance. (tama ba?) i went along with my relatives to participate sa Alay Lakad. an annual event which i never religiously followed annually. and so there, we walked the 14 stations of the cross up to the antipolo cathedral. grabe sa over. 5 kms ba yun? ang sakit ng katawan ko!! ('till now) and yun..

on the way may mga libreng tubig, libreng c.r, libreng dyaryo, libreng pabahay, libreng hipo, libreng scholarship, libreng papa.... etc. pero syempre hindi totoo yun..

Alay Lakad is also known as:

-Alay Porma- when posers of all ages would make their way to antipolo wearing their own "fashionista" statements.

-Alay Gala- wala lang. nakikiuso lang sila.

-Alay Syota- the best oppurtunity to cuddle with your syota. tae.

disappointing, oo. this event was suppose to be something you offer to God, sharing His passion, hindi ba? kaso oo nga maraming tao ngayon, SOBRANG DAMI, pero devoid na of meaning.

i had clean intentions of participating sa Alay Lakad.. promise! pero on the way talaga marami kang makakasalamuhang mga tao na halata namang sugod ng Diyos para subukan ang pasensya mo... haay...


QA RECORDING, MARKET! MARKET!

so Ambergris Solutions finally called back and told me that we'll be having our contract signing at 5pm, April 11. woah! hindi ba astig? pero after 2 hours or so, they called back again, joke lang daw.

we still have to pass this qa recording. na we have to pick 4 out of 9 questions, answer it over the phone and to also read a Mini- Miranda..


ex: Hello, this is (state name here) i'm from capgemini energy. we represent txu energy.
we are attempting to collect a debt amounting to $100.
blah blah blah and if you don't pay now we'll sue you,
asshole!!
*BWAHAHAHAHA!*
yun. dapat ganun raw. hehe unfortunately they made me repeat my thingies twice. and then kat and i made our way home... they'll call us daw.
tapos...
3RD
tumambay muna ko kela kat after the recording. text terd to come over, which he immediately accepted naman. he's just a ride away from kat's place. so yun.. we spent the day together.. haay. talking, harutan, sapakan at inuuto yung mga kapatid ni kat sa mga walang humpay niyang magic.. we decided to go home at 8pm. and pagkalabas namin sa porch.. he gave me a peck.
pasintabi lang po sa mga AA.
i feel like a fubu. except that we don't fu.
tae.
ECO
to L.E---> you!
  • if it weren't for this shitty eco class, i should have been packing my things to BORA now.
  • you know he finally invited me to go with him sa kanilang family outing, pero i have to attend this summer!!

it meant a lot to me na ininvite ako ni (III) sa outing nila with his family. i have been wishing to meet his family.. tapos thanks to you.. HINDI NA PWEDE!

bitter.

so bitter.

4.10.2006

officially single, tribute article 1

went to school to get my clearance. texted him if he wants to meet up with me, he said yes. i felt stupid for texting him and wondered why he agreed to see me... but whatever the reason was, he fetched me.. he was just as casual as before it irritated me for he was acting as if nothing happened, cracking up jokes as if he said noting grave to me. he was so plainly him and it pissed me! and he got pissed too.. we had an hour of silence. we talked, actually texted though we were beside each other, i cried, then he said "ngayon mo sabihing masaya ka sa 'kin.." he hugged and kissed me and we decided to spend the day together.. for the last time...

we took a bus, nagharutan, laughed, punched each other out. nilamukot niya mukha ko, and told me that i looked so ugly when i pout.. i said he'll miss that and he said yes. went to mega, nag-arcade, got lost, got broke, drank frappes, sat down on those metal benches and talked... he asked for the breaking-up speeches i wrote before and read it.. and after that we took pictures of ourselves... laughed and laughed more.. and decided to go home. while we were on the escalator he hugged me tight and said "mamimiss ko to..." ako din. then he accompanied me to the terminal station.. talked some more, joked some more, punched and sratched each other's skin some more and all the harot we do. we did. he went home. i went home and will miss every inch of fat he has, all the corny jokes, all his ka-artehan, all his hirits, i will miss him...

4.09.2006

unang araw, linggo ng palaspas

sabi kanina ni Fr. Orbos sa kanyang retreat:

"Let Go. Let God. Move On"

maybe that was a sign from God. for me to let go, for me to let Him decide and steer my life and move on. maybe that was His sign. or was i just being too cheesy?

"now i know i'm not really making you happy.. i think i should really let you go.."-adik-adik; 10:54am

after sending him tons of text messages last night. he texted me this morning on my way to church. he said sorry. sorry for leaving me. and i said we say sorry when we did something wrong, he doesn't have to say sorry. and so he didn't reply anymore..

Patlang by Cambio

Tumutulo luha ko
Tahimik tayo sa telepono
Di makakailang
Di na tayo masaya sinta
*paano kung ayoko na?
`san na tayo pupunta?

**pilit mang pigilin
Luha'y darating din
Wag mo lang sabihin
Ayaw mo nang isipin
Wag na nating patagalin
Di ka masaya
Pagod na ako
Tapusin na natin ito
Di makapaniwalang matatapos na
Parang kay tagal nating nagdusa
Pusong di mapalagay
Parang habambuhay kitang hinintay
Repeat * and **

Paalam na (8x) sinta

"'Di ka masaya, pagod na ako.."

4.07.2006

Lalalalala...

THE BEST PORN SITE EVER!!! haha check it out!
nah.. tingnan niyo lang. mga mind buggling illusions.
enjoy..
-_-

http://www.winterrowd.com/illusions

4.06.2006

thoughts of an inconsistent (depressed) writer

of watching Home Boy

i was just wondering. is snooky serna's boyfriend the ex-boyfriend of ala paredes? or was i just so stupid? anyway. their kinda weird---in a cute way. i think that nino is a member of the blue jeans band. imagine. nino at 32 inlove with snooky at 40. wow. amazing noh?

next. baron geisler and tarah tambunting (tunog mayaman noh?). tarah's 16 and baron's 23. nice. their kinda cute din. stories have it na while tarah (a singer) sings, baron will suddenly come up on stage and read tarah a poem, written while tarah was doing her thing on stage. pasweet.

lovers.

i wish i can be happy too.. free to express myself in public like them. enjoying my life to the ends of it. i wish i was allowed to fall in love...

to hell with tarah tambunting at 16.. i am already 18. of leagal age. can be sued. can sue. can work. can love. but not allowed to.. it sucks.

no offense tarah.. i'm just bitter about my isolated life..

a letter to mr. sigmund freud

ginoong sigmund freud,

itong sulat na ito ay tungkol nga pala sa paliwanag mo tungkol sa mga makumundong panaginip. oo alam kong hindi ka nakakaintindi ng tagalog pero dahil matalino ka naman.. eh.. alam kong gagawan mo ng paraan. tungkol ito sa napanaginipan ko tito boy.. este.. mr. freud. napanaginipan ko ang isa sa mga importanteng lalake ng buhay ko. hindi kamag-anak. naniginip akong magkasama raw kami sa isang gig sa mall, holding hands, at sweet na sweet. sa panaginip para kaming magsyota. pero sa totoong buhay, hindi kami. at parang si jewel in the palace at kapitan na forbidden love. hehe tangina ang corny ko pero susulatan pa rin kita.. hindi naman sa bawal pero parang taboo kasi. ah ewan. yun na lang. napanaginipan ko siya at sa panaginip na yun alam kong may "girlfriend" siya at alam niyang may "someone" ako pero pasweet pa rin kami sa panaginip na yun.. ang tanong.. BAKIT AKO NANAGINIP NG GANUN???

sabi mo daw kasi. ang mga panaginip ay mga hiling natin sa reality. kaya nga "dreams".. inaasam.. pinagnanasaan (lecheng term). at dahil nga hindi naman pupwedeng mangyari sa tunay na buhay, tinatapon ng utak natin ang mga ideyang ito sa sub-conscious at pagtulog natin magma-manifest ito into a dream (ayan. marami ng ingles na salita). ang tanong... SIGURADO KA BA???

alam kong naiirita ka na sa kin pero, pasensya na.. nawindang lang talaga ako sa panaginip ko nung isang gabi. hindi ko kinaya! haay. wala lang.. ikaw? kamusta na love life mo?

keep in touch,
kai

4.05.2006

pusa at k/ky-eme

while i'm typing this entry, there is.. umm..

*shit i have to look!*

a kitten. a white kitten with black spots, sleeping at (on, in.. whatever!) my window.
good that IT's sleeping, kanina it was STARING AT ME THE WHOLE TIME!!

*God IT's awake again!!!*

please. i hope i'll not wake up in the middle of the night with IT's creepy meows and chevers.

*tulog na talaga siya!!*

11:30pm: NAGISING YUNG PUSA!!!

----
eto nga pala ang pag-aaway namin tungkol sa spelling ng...

kai: KYEME KAYA!!!
kai: haha natatawa tuloy ako sa pronunciation ko.
kai: basta KYEME!

jon: kyeme is like.. kuya jason's pronunciation of keme..
angge: see kai?!
avery: keme kaya...
avery: sorry uli...

myx: spelling ko din keme
kai: keme.
kai: keme.
kai: keme.
kai: keme.

angge: 4 vs 1 kai!!!
angge: hahahahaha!!
angge: joke
kai: pag-pitik ko ng daliri ko kyeme na ang paniniwalaan niyo..
angge: love u kai
kai: kyeme.
kai: kyeme
kai: kyeme
kai: kyeme
kai: kyeme
kai: kyeme
kai: *snap*

avery: keme...
angge: KEME KEME KEME KEME KEME
kai: tae.
myx: kemeeee
avery: keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme keme
myx: k to the eme.
avery: kemeeeee naman to...

ng kami'y nag-YM nung madaling araw nung april 4

avery: yes?
mingu: bkt d ka pnta kai?
kai: ((same lines))
kai: financial matters.
kai: preparing for mama's project launching.
mingu: kng pautangin ka namin?
avery: please please please...
avery: oonga...
avery: ni mingu.. go mingu!

kai: 450+groceries+pocket money.
kai: (gago eiv.)
mingu: oo nga!! di ka na nga nag OP r
kai: oo nga...:(
mingu: -ehji
mingu: kwentahin mo lahat magkano

avery: nakina mingu si ejhi...
mingu: now na
kai: huh?
avery: 800?
avery: heheh...
kai: ha..
mingu: andito rin c edge
kai: more or less..
kai: hi ehji.

mingu: katabi ko
kai: :)
avery: 650?
avery: 650?
mingu: mgkano kai>
angge: wow
kai: malay..
avery: 550 lang kasya na yun...
kai: guys kakausapin ko pa si mama ulit bukas..
angge: kai i think 700 is enough
avery: pocket money ikaw na bahala... kaya mo na yan!
angge: sobra p nga un e
kai: yah. i have 57 pesos.
avery: oo.. sobra pa ang 700... OA...
kai: haay.
kai: cge kakausapin ko ulit si mama..

avery: oki na yan pang pocket!
avery: ako nga... natirang pera ko... 27php.
avery: kumusta?

angge: kc may food nmn n delata
kai: umm..
kai: may isa pa problem..
angge: ano?
kai: di ako marunong lumngoy.
avery: ano?
mingu: kwentahin mo, we'll do something bout it..
avery: DUH?!
avery: edi turuan ka namin ni marrrrlon...

angge: duh kai!
angge: punta n b c marlon?

avery: ewan... pero dapat siyang pumunta kasi... buddy niya si kuya gretski...
kai: hehe marlon? ewan.
mingu: ipapasan nlang kita, mtankad nman ako -ehji
mingu: tell ur mom na kami gagastos

avery: oonga... go mingu!
angge: nice ehji
avery: :D
angge: oo nga kai pra msaya tau
kai: hahaha!
kai: :((
kai: tangina niyong lahat!!!
mingu: kaya no prob

*ang mayabang na si avery, di pala pinapayagan..*

avery: oonga...
avery: ako pa...
avery: hindi pa ako pinapayagan...
mingu: smahan nyo na ho,
angge: oist c anne ndi p sure kc may outing din xa ng 8
mingu: ko..
avery: hekhekhek...

kai: naiiyak ako!

mingu: -ehji
kai: mga hayop kayo!
kai: teka..
kai: kakausapin ko si mama talga..

mingu: guys tulungan to ha, for kai
kai: PPPOOOOOOOOOOTAH!!!
kai: tama na!!
angge: haha!!
avery: :D
kai: tae pinagtawanan pa ko..
kai: gago.
angge: kapwa ko mahal ko newest edition
kai: GAGO ANGGE!!!

i love these guys so much. too bad na kahit sana susupotahan nila ko for the farewell party, hindi na talaga ako pinayagan at hindi na talaga papayagan... ganoon lang talaga. pero kahit ganoon. i'm thankful na may mga kaibigan akong tulad nila... guys enjoy na lang kayo ha?...